I was always far away from you, living in a different city
When that distance grew during my global going
I smiled and said,
I love this “no eyes, no tears” position, as our Bangla proverb says.
But who knew then that
If you don’t have eyes,
Your eye-pots would become a void mine
Who knew then that the more you go far away
Along the bank of the river Brisbane
The more your eye-pots refill
And your heart sob like the river Karnafuli!
A holiday, a seclusion, a silence make me homesick
Unfamiliar faces, voices, and dialects
Create cravings for the lost and the left out
To restore
I immediately make phone calls
And seek to hide in the distant familiar
And seek to cabbage my days with the digital love
But calls are to end
The digital is to drop
Then again the void reopens
seclusion unwraps the heart
I feel like a bare banana
And tremor like the river Chotofeni
In the fold of Brisbane.
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Umme Salma, 2016, July
